Life Continues On...

Treatment went ahead as scheduled on Tuesday with my shots to increase blood cell production following on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. I think I am getting to the point where I could actually do it myself. I have never been afraid of needles and the shots don't hurt. I think, at this point, I could get past the psychological hang up of giving a shot. The shots do make my bones hurt. That is a bummer! This time around it didn't start until the second day but by the third shot I had horrible pains in my thighs that lasted a good two days. I am pretty good, too with pain but the constant side effect...one after another is getting very annoying. It pretty much just sucks!

The treatment itself was uneventful. They decreased the dose of Methotrexate to 40 (Mcg??). I'm still not sure what the unit of measurement is. When I asked why the doctor said I was originally getting 30 how could the decreased dose now be 40, she said something about squared. Technical lingo that isn't meant to be understood by the pin cushion, I guess. I'm a good pin cushion...sit down and shut up! Okay :-)

Tuesday was an okay day. I was mostly just tired. Wednesday was Brendon's 11th birthday so I tried with all my might to get up and keep moving to keep his day normal and special. I don't know that I succeeded but if there is any of my kids that have empathy and compassion for what I am going through, it is Brendon. I paid for that on Thursday. I had hoped that if I kept my body in motion I could train it to work through the chemo. I will try it again this week. I was feeling sick..and tired...and that horrible taste in my mouth...ugh! That is mostly what I try not to focus on!

As with every week (we are so incredibly blessed) we enjoyed the love and meals from great friends. I have to say that my kids aren't picky but some of the meals will replace my meals as their favorites (hey! No fair). By this I mean my lasagna was the favorite my kids have ever tasted. We have it every Christmas and on very special occasions. Yolanda made some on Tuesday that Justin came home from school asking for left overs....! That's a first :-) Mickey brought over yummy enchilada casserole (that I didn't even know ever existed until chemo) and juicy barbecue burgers from Karen. How will I ever live up to all of this when life returns to normal?? You guys are incredible! More than the meals, I value your friendship.

Thank you for checking in on us. We hit a rough patch every week and I am not going to lie. It is a struggle to keep physical and emotional health in check. Many of you know I am a cry er...and it operates as a release for me. Let me put it simply...there has been a lot of releasing!! You have touch the very core of my soul with your friendship and I only pray that I can be half the kind of friend in your time of need. You amaze and inspire me to keep moving...and I shall.

My next fight is tomorrow morning. God willing I will get past more than two treatments. I had a slight fever yesterday and I am feel sort of crummy, so I some what doubt the decrease will have an effect on my "freaked out" body. Only time and poison (haven't lost my sense of humor) will tell!!

Have a great day! I'll check in soon...