Wow!

I just got off the phone with a dear, dear friend...and she mentioned she's been avoiding a call to me because she doesn't know what to say to me :( I have had my share of disappointments in the friend department since starting my journey with radiation and then chemo but I never dreamed some of it was because they didn't know what to say to me.

Let me say this to you...I am the type of person who releases emotions by talking about it. I have been this way all my life and I heal by getting it out. I realize that not everyone is like me but for me, I need this. So if you are hanging back because you don't know what to say, ask. I am not offended by the questions, it actually helps me. I have to assume some just don't care and that's all right. They aren't truly my friends...a quote I found recently states; "some are only friends in name." I've come to this sad realization recently. My point is sharing this with you is please don't hang back because you don't know what to say. I need your support right now. We, as a family are in crisis mode and struggling to deal with all that is coming our way.

My friend said she was glad she called. She was able to share her fears for me...with me. It helped her, too. She hadn't realized (in all the years she's known me) that I need that. I just wanted to put that out there. If you arent' comfortable with that approach, I get that, too. If ya don't care, I already figured that out!

Loving, delicious meals provided by (sounds like an advertisement, huh?) the Ruiz, Mayse, Feix and Meza families. You are all just too amazing! My kids are having the time of their lives. They feel the love, love the food and get a kick out of inviting you into our home :-) We love you all and thank you for standing by us and making us fat! Haha-just kidding!

I'll talk to you on Thursday once I meet with the doc...