Marked Up and Ready To Go!

Today they took me back to the machine and did more measurements, set-up and scans. It took about 30 minutes with my head burried in the pillow, so I don't know really what they did. I do know they took the old stickers off and added more. The new stickers will need to stay on until next Friday when they hope to put on the tatoos. They also made a lovely scalloped edge marking along my whole side. Not sure what that is all about and they are pretty robotic when it comes to procedure.

That is my chief complaint at this point. While I understand that they do they countless times a week, I only do it once. For me, it is frightening, the unknown. They have never offered explaination or comfort. A simple lay down, don't move, we'll be right back is the best I have received. I thrive when given information. I don't shy away from it, even if it scares me to death. Information gives me control again. Today, I lost control. I must have shown it in my face because their demeanor changed but I had 30 minutes to suck it up and get over it. I couldn't do anything about it so I went to a "happy place :-) I appreciate that they recognized the fear but I had hoped they would be more sensitive to it before they actually saw it. Surely I can't be the only patient who has apprehension the first time they see and hear everything.

It is what it is. I am ready, I think for the real stuff to happen. I have daily appointments at 9 a.m. until the kids get out of school for summer break. After that, my appointments will be at 8 a.m. This early time will allow the kids to stay home with Scott until I get back and should only delay his appointments by 30 minutes, an hour at the most.

That's all for now. Thank you all for checking in on me today.